What is it that we are really living for? Why must it seem like the mediocrity of life and the worldly pleasures are the only thing we can find that can suffice the yearning inside of our souls? We chase the dream as the mirage of water upon the hot desert road. We chase it until our legs are weak and our thirst grips us into the abyss of false hopes and reality that was only a mere image that strips us of our dignity and self worth. Why can't we see.
I realize more and more each day of how little I know about myself or what I want. I cry over the tragedies or life and scold God for supposedly his wrong doing to me, but really I am my own worst enemy. I am the road block that holds me back and I am the blindfold that hinders my sight. The reality of it all is that MY idea was nothing more than a pipe dream and fairytales made up from what the mass media told me I should be. Be married, have kids, make money and make sure YOUR okay. Is that really all there is to life? Will I subject myself to the vain pursuit of happiness anymore? The reality is there is more to it than that. There is more to it that is imaginable! Why is it so hard to see that?
I overheard someone one day talking about this study that was done with moths. What they did is put moths into a jar for a certain amount of time and closed the lid. after they waited a reasonable amount of time they opened the jar to let the moths free. What they noticed is that the moths would not leave the jar, even if the lid was open, because they were stuck in the jar for so long they had no idea that there was anything eles than that jar anymore. It baffled me when I heard that because we are no different than those moths. The doors of freedom from ourselves are opened wide to us but since we can't comprehend it or imagine it we stay in our own worlds...never really getting to enjoy the blessings of life or to seek to new horizons. If I only know one thing it is this. The possibilities are endless! The world and spirituality of it all makes it all worth living for! Makes all the sorrows and heartache nothing more than a stepping stone towards growth and towards true happiness! It exists and it is real, just believe and never say never. Never say "well this is who I am and I can't change" because all your doing is hindering your growth. Anything is possible. Never forget to dream. I Love You all have a great night and please don't just reach high, reach infinitely into the stars among the stars and to sights beyond sights. It's all there waiting for it to be discovered. :) Good Night and God Bless.
